03 October 2006

The Fear of God and Babies

Why is it that I feel like I need to explain myself when I buy pregnancy tests? I don’t actually explain myself, but I feel like I should. Or flash them my wedding ring as though it were a badge indicating that I have the right to procreate. I mulled this over yesterday as I stood in line at Target and tried to be discreet about my purchase.

Clearly, I shouldn’t have to explain myself. What I do is nobody else’s business. I should be holding my head high and being thankful I have this opportunity. But I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s a result of societal and parental influence.

Growing up all you hear about is how awful it would be to get pregnant at an early age. Though 100 years ago, I would have had a whole passel of chil’rens by now. But the various after school specials and government subsidized episodes of your favorite sit-coms more or less drilled it into your head that teen pregnancy is right up there with drug abuse. While I agree that teen pregnancy is not the best option, plenty of people have survived it. If they were trying to create emotional scarring that would generally discourage the population from ever procreating, they may have achieved their goal.

Add to that the fear instilled at home. I was the result of a teen pregnancy and my mom, determine to keep me from making the same mistake, once told me that if I got pregnant, I would be on my own. ‘Kay. If you know/knew me, that’s pretty laughable. I didn’t even date in high school. Problem solved.

So this is me dealing with the demons and trying to not feel ashamed about buying a pregnancy test. Hopefully I won’t pass out from holding my breath.

And the answer to your question is: No.

10 comments:

cjm said...

So if you're trying again is pretty clear now. I would be exactly the same way buying a pregnancy test. Although, the thought of me pregnant NOW is laughable (not just in high school). I may be a year or so away from becoming a nun. Can you become a nun if you're not sure about the whole God and Jesus thing? Probably not. Anyway, just flash them your ring and move on.

Editor in Chief said...

I hear ya. But, I have advice on this, too! drugstore.com. It's a lifesaver. That's where I got PG tests AND ovulation predictors. I think you get free shipping on purchases of $50 or more (so throw in some face products and your good to go), but even if you have to pay shipping, it beats the hell out of the stares at the store.

Also, you can buy something like 100 at a time for about a buck, or something like that. Do a google search. I know a girl that buys them in bulk. Why, I have no idea. Except that she's THAT cheap.

Sorry about the outcome, though. Completely understand the excitement build-up, then the extreme let-down. :(

Jillie Bean (AKA Bubba's Sis) said...

Why would anyone need 100 pregnancy tests?

Keep trying, Angelq - it'll happen. Hugs to you...

angelq said...

There's still a slight possibility that it's just too early to test. But after how definite the results were last time, I'm trying my best to not get my hopes up.

Thank you all for your best wishes.

cjm said...

Is the bulk UPT girl cheap or a little easy?

Interesting that you're taking a pregnancy test before it could actually show up that you are pregnant. Why not wait a week or so? Or do people not do that? Having never taken one myself I'm not sure about the protocol.

angelq said...

Okay, this is probably going to be TMI for some of you. Of course the best way to figure out you're PG is to miss your Monthly Visit. But, if you are looking to get PG you can technically test as early as 14 days after you ovulate. But most tests indicate that the accuracy is only about 60% at that time. So if it comes up negative. They recommend waiting 3 days and testing again. See again, this is what katielady was talking about a few weeks back. Why don't they teach you this stuff?

Editor in Chief said...

Well, I bought the HPTs that said you can detect a positive about 9 DPO (days past ovulation), but I didn't get mine until day 13. But you're right, if it isn't positive and Aunt Flo still hasn't shown her ugly face, then you test again. Bubba's Sis, that's why you need a ton. I know some girls that would hold their pee at various times a day and sometimes test 4 or 5 times that same day. When you've got a lot of tests on hand, that's what you do.

And cjh, if you are really WANTING to be pregnant, you CAN NOT wait another week. You want to know ASAP!!! ;)

japruf said...

you think buying them when you're a woman who wants to be pregnant is bad? try being the male on the other end of the late night mini-panic that birth control didn't work. Nothing like standing in line at 12:30 in the morning holding nothing but an EPT box. And no ability to show a ring, because you were already in bed and had taken it off...

Bubba's Mom said...

Hey girls - whatever happened to just relaxing and letting it happen??

Anonymous said...

My main thought when we got married was "Whew. If I get pregnant now I can't get in trouble!" How said is that? And I, too, feel the need to flash my wedding rings. I'm 27 and have been married for 5 years. But still, I feel the need to defend myself just as you mentioned.

Good luck with the baby-making. We shall be on that road in few months as well.